the hot chocolate recipe is forthcoming, as chocolate is a far more complex ingredient than cocoa, much more than i anticipated. in the mean time, i have a theory about emotions which i would like to share, and have critiqued.

when i refer to emotions in this discussion, i mean to focus on emotional response to present and past, which is separate from emotional anticipation to the future. the scales i refer to exist in two modes. polar scales, like magnetic poles, consist of inverse states, between which is a gray region and a null point. these scales could be represented with positive one to negative one values. cardinal scales, derived from the cardinality of vectors in math (i am looking for a better term), consist of the presence and lack of a state. these scales may be represented in one of two forms. first are scales from one to zero, which could describe states like hot, cold, or light. second are scales from infinity to zero, like size, distance, and other measurable states.

first i would like to propose a polar scale of positive to negative. this is best simply exemplified by good and bad. an action either went well, in which it was at least partially a success, or went poorly, in which is was at least partially a failure. the important element is whether it went the way we desired. this is the primary scale by which we measure the past and present.

directly related to this scale is the scale of importance. this basically is the angular measure of the primary polar scale to any other scale. this is a strange scale to deal with, as the number of possible dimensions in which the scales of meaning exist could be infinite. it might be interesting to figure out how many dimensions of meaning exist, but that is completely beyond the scope of this discussion. basically there are scales which correlate to primary polarity, and there are those that do not.

a second cardinal scale is that of intent. certain times things go as we would like them, other times they askew. this is not parallel to the scale of primary polarity, as although things do not go exactly as we plan, yet may be just as good. this is not to suggest that the scale is entirely perpendicular. excluding the truly masochistic, when things go the way we intend, they can not fully be argued to be bad. when analyzing philosophies with value systems like tao or karma, the intent scale actually has an interesting orientation to primary polarity, in which the poles of primary polarity correspond to the negative pole of intent, and vise versa.

a third polar scale is that of causation. i propose that this be the scale which legal decisions base their punishments upon. this scale has no correlation to the primary polar scale. strangely enough, we rarely make a distinction on this scale when things occur as we intend, but make a broad distinction when things do not go as we intend. the breadth of this distinction seems to be based on the intent scale importance. thus there are sixteen variations of emotional response.

it is interesting to not that the spectrum of emotional illness is determined by which responses occur where they should not. depression is any form of misplaced sadness. aggressiveness is the level of importance which creates anger. masochism is misplaced happiness. self destructiveness is the existence of intended bad behavior, often associated with happiness.

i am not happy because what i have written is not important.

this is my present recipe for hot cocoa

• 4 teaspoons cocoa powder
• 1 teaspoon brown sugar
• 0.25 liters milk

stir the dry ingredients and about a tablespoon of milk into a thick syrup at room temperature. place on 140˚ fahrenheit and stir in the rest of the milk.

this recipe actually is not comparable to hot chocolate, but it is simple and pretty tasty for a cheap alternative. i am going to get some unsweetened chocolate this afternoon and whip up a recipe then.

[It appears this image is no longer available at PBF. -j, 2014-10-12]

well i think this has been neglected for a while. to long a while for my tastes. i am internally critical of others who neglect their blogs, yet i fail to write to an ammount similar to my thoughts. shame on me.

I have come back to my parent’s home for the christmas break. it is so nice to be in a place where i can find comfortable enrivonments again. who knew my yearning was for coffeeshops as well as friends? but now i can speak with my friends in person again, and with company, my mood is noticably enlightened. yet i still end up doing tech support. i have decided that my recomendations were right, with the exception of thunderbird, which fails to be as wonderful as gmail. is you are looking for a new email address, i strongly suggest one at gmail. i even have a few invitations left, ask and you will recieve.

beyond technology, i have dived into the interesting realm of hypothetical philosophy. it is interesting to apply ideas to your own life and to those who are similar to you, but when technology reigns, the artificial and the simulation are seated at the height of power. when the questions which drive existence rack our brains, applying our natural responces to a digital mind opens wonderous doors.

for example, it seems plain to us that every man has religion. some belive in a god, some in many, and some in none at all. but when silicon questions why, how do we respond? as engineers, we claim the creation as our own, so what if we have no sole creator? if we claim existance serves to fulfil a highest goal, how do we help this miracle of sentience the intricacies of its? as children, we are raised with assumed values, rules, and bounds of thought. should we impose such restrictions on a virtual mind until it matures into adulthood? i have no answers yet.

but adulthood is becoming a difficult symbol to define in my life. i can work for money, and spend it upon what sustains me, am i yet adult? i can plan for years into the future, and determine goals which achieve greater goals. i can trust, and be trusted (though i would not trust me if i were you), be a member in community. i can even maintain myself through difficult times, rejoicing them as i rejoice oportunity. but i cannot claim to be an adult. i have my own reasons which you know nothing of. take my word though, these things are not enough.

and one final thing, please give me no books to read. try your hardest not to add to my burdens, as much as i would love to read more, i have months of reading lined up.

try googling for christ or saint nicholas. and remind me to write.

hi there. my name is joseph anthony pasquale holsten. i am a very unusual person. you would have figured that out, but if that is a problem, feel free to leave. i do not care about your opinion. even yours jamie, nathan, paul, diane. now that that has been settled, let us begin.

the first thing you may have noticed is the lack of capital letters and contractions. these are more difficult to read, and the only reason that the standard is all capitals instead of lower case is the name of god. well look at that, although i use no capitals, you realize that i use the definite case for the noun. amazing.

i also read a lot, and use furl. i do not know if i can openly publish my furl links, but for now i will simply link inside this page. typing of furl, i use a plethora of tools to get me through the day. every so often i stumble upon a new one and will give you some info on it. furl is useful for a specialized purpose, that is to save web sites. i just typed a page of description, but you can get that at furl.

oh, also unusual is my interest in linguistics. my current favorite language is esperanto. the title of this page is esperanto for free ideas. that would be free as in liberty, not as in beer as rms says. you should learn it for free as in beer. you recieve a diploma for completion, and can communicate with a personal tutor via email. i liked it so much the first time, i am taking it a second time. actually i just forgot esperanto from lack of use. i am very lazy.

also, gmail is to email what furl is to bookmarks, or the other way around if that helps. if you want to join, i have two invitations left at present.

please maintain your computer, especially if you use windows. i will glady help with anything you need me to do. if you have not at least installed a virus scanner, firewall, and spyware remover, contact me immediately. i am putting together a collection of free, like beer, tools to maintain windows machines, i would love to give you a copy. so far i am planning on including avg antivirus, zone alarm firewall, adaware, spybot search & destroy. along with those will be mozilla, for its popup blocking and features, and thunderbird for email, because outlook express is terrible.

i refuse to write in a concluding style.